Okay too lazy even to post my stories...

Had to find some paperwork the other day. I found some of my old stories. Might post them here. I've been really unmotivated lately, but I'm going to try and rectify that. I've even started emailing my friends again!!!! That's how bad I am. Not that my friends are big on email. If I don't email them, all I get are forwarded jokes. So I guess sometimes I feel like I'm making all the effort to keep in touch.

Experiment didn't work. I'm too lazy.

I've started an experiment. It's a personal one, about letting go of my defenses. It's slow going, but hopefully I'll get there.

I don't know what to write. All I know is I haven't been very inspired lately. Life has come and taken over, but I don't want be consumed once again. I'm not ready to let go or shut down.

I've come to the realisation that I'm a sugar addict. For years I've been denying this. I've always thought my taste ran towards the savoury side. I don't eat a lot of lollies (I find them too sweet) or chocolate (same again). I prefer salty things, but I've realised that I need to have 5 or more servinngs of fruit a day. If I don't then I get really grumpy. I usually have a piece of fruit before and/or after a meal. I've also noticed that if I don't have fruit, I start graving sugary foods like lollies. I'm trying to eat more protein to help stabilise my sugar cravings. But since I don't eat much meat I've been grazing on nuts and seeds all day.

Let's see how I go.

#44: How many words...

MEDICINES

sin, din, dine, dime, dim, scene, seed, seen, seem, die, dice, mice, mien, mine, ice, see, men, medicine, end

A motion picture scene,
A cast of the dice,
The sin of mice and men,
A nickle and a dime,
On a gambler's whim,
Now his life is mine.

His last meal he will dine,
Poison it will seem,
And in the din of non-existence,
the winning medicine so far out of reach,
The darkness he will see.

A mien of ice,
His Lady Luck
nowhere to be seen,
the seed of life
left alone to die,
A loser to the bitter end.